My Woolgathering

It's me again! Omg, what a year! And as always, thank you for surviving this year again Dee 🥰 honestly tho I'm really shock about everything within this year, good and bad as always. But hey, I'm proud of you. If no one ever say that to you, then I will. It's always you and yourself through everything. But it's alright! This year, you have become someone amazing 🤩💖

I hope next year will be better! No need to worry, because I understand you can do everything! Be grateful as always. Please maintain your health and try to become the woman you wish to be 🥰💕

Hi again! Omg it's 2024 already, huh? I mean, when I write this, it was on the end of this year and you probably read it on 2025. But whatever. 

Again, and again, and again, I would like to thank you for you that already survived again this year. You are amazing! 😭🙏💖 Things happened a lot in this year, probably even more than any year previously but I don't want to compare. It's just... I would say that this year different. I will tell you below, but please do not worry, it's not as bad as 2021 lol! 🤣

You remember that on 2023, you decided to leave Surabaya, right? Yogyakarta is truly a paradise to live in! 😋 Chill, you did not regret this decision and even you were glad to be here. Many places you never come was a thrilling journey! 😭😭💖 There are mountains, beaches, even mural village is really the place you wish to find and it is all on Jogja! 

Mann, I'm not gonna lie you love this city so much that you don't want to go back to sby 😂😂😂 it is such a calm city (not the traffic tho) where you can still find greens everywhere! No skyscrapers and everyone here is warm. You even made many new friends!  🤟

Oh, the job! Ugh, you hate the job so much like you want to kms. Never in my life I thought to encounter this kind of troublesome job that make you so stress bruhh. The jokes is that I have already complete all 6 stage if grief and the last one is celebrating 😫🤟 you have endured the pressure so much and it taunts you, made you cry a lot and wish for better job (BUT AGAIN YOU DON'T WANT TO GO HOME). But this experience actually develops you into such a person who understand yourself more than anyone. So, thank you! Really 🥹

And please dont forget Mba Uli, Mba Hana, Cece, Agrin, Mba Nab, and everyone on the floor that you knew. They are all good person and you are glad that you met new friends from other places as well. They are all nice! 

Oh, also you are very close to Tia and mba Milen as your flatmates! And omggg believe me you are glad to meet them as joyful friends that stay by your side in Jogja. You are doing good for not forgetting UwU friends that becomes part of your life, your soul and bonded with you as a family. Jun, Sekar, and Jepri will always stay with you. Thank you for keeping your promise! 😭😭💖🙏 Cannot imagine to not live without them. 

And following your desire dream to have a better job, you are doing your best to try to pursue joining the CPNS as a civil servant. And hey, it was a rough journey to always study all the time and dividing your time with college as well. But I appreciate your hardwork. It was arduous and you cried a lot, hoping to passed. You also meet Peh here, the one who inspire you to become civil servant. Kid is doing great and hope to see her soon, lmao! 😂

And uh... by the time I write this on the train (yes) it is about 5 days before the announcement. For all of your hardwork, you wish to passed and got accepted. Reaaally, even now I am crying to think about this remembering your effort to stand at this point. But if it was not what you expected, it is alright! Please do not give up and trust Allah and doa bapak ibu coyy aslii 😫

BTW KALAU LULUS DI JAKARTA COY YG BENER AJE KOTA YG SAMSEK GA LU PENGEN DATENGIN TERUS KERJA SAMA ORANG-ORANG 'ITU' LAGI 😭😭😭 emg gajelas nih wkwkkw. Semoga ga mati 😭😭🙏

And to end this message, I would like to know that things happened in kos. The negative way, the worse that you encounter is being left by someone so dear. It's okay! Qodarullah. Also please if you can meet mba milen in when she's healthy, dont forget to meet her! By reality, actually she is the one who encounter everything more than you, more than anyone as a strong woman. Dont forget Tia is also your (another) sister here wkwkwk. 

To sleep alone and having your only room is such a bliss 😇 you feel it. Be grateful! And your faith is better in this year, the beautiful way to be closer to Allah.

Oh, you also still watch One Piece! Keep going gurrrl 😎😎🤟🤟🤟🤟2024 is still not the end of wampis wkkwkw anjir but what a good anime and SHOCKINGLY YOU DONT PLAY GENSHIN AGAIN LMAOOO. But who knows in your year you will start to play again. Also more hobbies to running and cooking (real). Yeashh it is soo good to run. You rewatch Haikyuu and this is stupid but you still love usuk like how this long??? 😫😫😫

Sadly, you only write 1 fic this year but it's okay! Your job is having shift so its hard to maintain every feelings. Let's write more on 2025! 🥳🥳

Thank you so much for surviving this year! I love you and you are doing great at Jogja! Take care in the next year and always be grateful 😍😍😍💕💕 

Sincerely,

Dee

It's the end of 2023! Congratulation you have survived this year too, Dee! 🥳 

A lot of things happened in this year also. You know how many times you need to struggle and ended up crying :")) but 2023 was amazing! 

Recalling the previous year, you wanted yo buy a new phone and you did! You got Jhonny V2 and you bought it with your own money as alwaaays. You are so cool for not burdening you parents 😎😎 also please remember to keep being grateful to Allah and everything okay? 

This year you left your precious internship at Pelindo on June 🥺 but it's alright because so many times you have tried to get a proper job for nine months and it was overwhelming and tired at the same time. You're gonna miss mbak Desi and your intern crew Grup Makan Siang who's already walking on their new path! They're mostly already graduated this year and you happy for them 😍😍😍

Remember to do your best to get back to Pelindo, okay? You can do itt 😇😇😇 please stay strong and wait for five years struggle to get there 🤧 and then once you can go back to Pelindo, make sure you will still remember about mbak Desi 🥰 she's your role model as a Secretary! You wanna be like her! 🥺🫶

Also you got your first time spending money to buy a reservation dinner for your dad's birthday on Hotel Bumi wtfff 😭😭 it was up to 1 mio wkwkwkwk but it was great! So great that you finally able to make your family happy! Im so proud at you. So much, 😭😭😭

And once you get out from Pelindo, you finally got your first job! It was a prominent company, a huge one and you cant believe you got there as an employeee 😭😭😭 XL Axiata was amazing! You finally got the job you want as a Secretary and served pak Dodik who you admired so much 🥺 he was a nice boss, the understanding one. You also got a nice friends ans family there. Mbak Vina and Rista is very nice to you 😭😭😭 but you know it was a temporary contract, right? 4 months was really a short time. But you glad you got accepted there as someone you wanted be. You did your best. Thank you so much 😇🙏 

Also you came to Bandung! The city that you wanna visit but it wasn't a good experience lolll. At least you eat good 🤣 

Then comes the worst part after you got out from XL. Remember it was a rough journey as a jobless for two months, but when you write this, you cried. Because you made a huge decision to wander and got a job offer to Yogjakarta. You heard supposedly it's a nice place. It was such a dilemma because you got a lower wage from XL :"")))))) but i wanted to see you developed there. You gonna miss your family so much, worrying about your mother who also struggle a lot. I wish you could still give them monthly money like you did when you still at XL.... 

Please tell me you made a good decision. Please survived and stay happy, okay? You decided to do anything there. And please remember, everything come at a cost. It's a small step to make you a successful person! You believe it! 😇😇 

Dee, you decided to pursue you bachelor degree yeaaay! 🥳🥳🥳🥳 it was hard but im sure you will manage! 

Also it's alright. You still write your fic ;)

Oh, and your friends! You looveeee themm so much that it hurts to leave them 😭😭💔💔 but its alright because I believe you gonna go back like once in a three months right? Pleaseee pleaseee keep in touch with them. You treasure them. You love UwU famm 😭😭

OHH! You decided to watch ONE PIECE THIS YEAR WKWKKWWKWK. You blashpheme that anime so badly now you are nakama 😭😭😭 its so silly that im laughing wkwkwk. Ace is cool. You love him 😍😍 you got a new ship and THE ANIME IS FREAKIN AMAZINGGGGG HUAHUAHAHA. Did you finish catch up OP in 2024? What was it like? SOMETHING HAPPENED TO LUFFY?? OR PERHAPS THE MANGA ENDED??? PLEASE TELL MEE HAHAHA. 

Overall this year is cool! 😎 please stay healthy and happy and take care of yourself in Jogja. I dont know how much you gonna survive there but you tried! Also please tell me you got a bf 😭😭😭💔 no drama and PLEASE BE SUCCESSS! 😇😇😇🙏 

I love you 🥰  best of luck for you in 2024! 

Sincerely,

Dee.

Phew. It's already the end of the year, huh? Time flies so fast. But what I'm going to say first is: congratulations! You have survived this year too dee! :D 

Honestly, there are a lot of things happened through this year. Don't judge me fast! It's not another worst year like before XD but it wasn't the best too lmao. And that's okey. The most important thing is you must be grateful! 

This year is the most challeging year for you dee. 2022 is the year when you face your adulthood, and you should understand it more than everything. This year you struggled a lot! Like, a lot :"D 

Remember, you did an internship at Disbudporapar for nearly three months right? It was really such a fun experience! You became a tourist and local guide there! For me it was amazing that you did it so well. You talked to hundreds of people including the bulee wkwkwk. It was fun! XD you enjoyed it a lot and once thought to become a tour guide instead lol. But you know your family hated it sooo much like it wasn't the most valuabe experience in your life. So you throw that hope away. Thats okey. 

Then you really decided to use your money to rent a room (ngekos). Idk how to say that wkwkwk. AND IT WAS THE HAPPIEST MOMENT IN YOUR LIFEE WTF IT WAS SO QUIET. You know you have been living with sooo many people. And you hated it. And you want to live alone by yourself, to ever know how it feels to have your own room. It was... emotional when I wrote this. It felt nice right? To have your own room even for only two months. 

I hope that... next year in 2023, you could have this. I hope that your own house is finally being taken care. If not then thats okey! Probably in the next year :D its all up to you dee, whether you want to become the one who take care of it or not. 

Then you really being serious in writing your final thesis! Omg it was rough that you must revised a lot XD but guess what? I have graduated this year! Yuuuhuuu it was a nice one! I did it! And I proud of what I did this year! 🥳🥳🥳 Finally out of college! But hell you decided to go back to uni next year to achieve your bachelor degree. I want to hear your story about that! Because you really wanted to choose different major! I hope it's the best decision you have ever made... 

No. It must be the best decision! Remember, something are woth the risk after all, right? 😁😁😁

I hate to admit but you haven't did what last year you hope. Right now I don't have any job and it was one of the depressed moment i have. Yet you manage to get another internship! It's such a big company! Pelindo is a great place that you wanted to work there someday! 😭💖 please remember this, and you must be able to grab your dream! In the next five year you will back there as a employee! 😁😁😁 I hope you don't forget about Mbak Desi and everyone there who have already helped you a lot! You did your best as an intern. Really, the moment you stepped there, the insecurity on you is so big like i wanted to die lmao. But you did it anyway. It was nice! 

Please tell me that you have buy a new phone sjosjssk 😭😭🤣

Also, that one fic you have talked about in previous was flop 😭💔 it wasn't the best but you did people cry like crazy hahaha. Because thats the only thing you wanted to do, right? To make people cry and felt the emotions you have wrote. It was nice that I already completed that story. And oh, try to complete the other one please 😭😭😭 you know what i mean wkwkwk. That war one. 

And yeah... your friends are nice. You got more and more connections this year. I hope that you dont forget about them and treasure them forever. 

2022 is a good year so far. I hope that next year will be the best. Please remember to always be kind and grateful. You are pretty. People just sucks at understanding your beauty. Also you are you. Just be yourself :) no drama next year okey? PLEASE BE SUCESS! 🙏

Anyway thats it i want to say! Best of luck for you! 

Sincerely,

Dee

Another year again! Phew! 

Anyway I'm glad at least this year is better than 2020, really. There are many good things happened in many ways through this year. But first, let me congratulate to you, myself that you have survived well on this year. Yeaaaay! XD 

The thing is, this year is when your college is became hell. So many things happened like a lot of homeworks, project and internship. It was the fourth and fifth semester, to be precise and that makes sense a lot. But it wasn't all bad, remember. I can say you had a quite not-so-bad score and you have accepted in a radio company for your internship (PKL). It was a really good experience, right? The people is so humble and interesting. I hope next year you will certainly not forget them by coming to the office again! 

Oh, next year might be the rough year. Guess what? Damn, you will turn 21! That's... old. I don't know if you could manage to get the uh... partner? Or the better good, a job! Also I would like you to write about the next intership next year. I hope everything doing good. Chin up, girl. I know you can do it. 

Also, this year you seemed to be quiet colorful. First, you joined into a new circle! I know by mentioned this you understand who. Yes, they were the people you always jelous for. You were always jealous and wanted it so bad to have such a friends like them but you did it anyway. Oh, the reason was because of the drama but at least they like you. Then you get closer to two friends from your highshcool that you have no idea they were like your bestie now!  Once again, congratulation! 

Next, is you did a splendid artworks! I know me now simply can't believe if you starting to draw again lmao. But it was good. I mean, your drawing is really good. You did well. 

Not to mention that you keep up your dream to became a writer! You have posted some f4nfictions on a03 and praised you! I love writing so much! You put so much efforts to write and remember, there is one fic that make you cried like crazy hahaha. Oh, right now I haven't posted it yet but I hope in the next year, that one your goal to make people cry over what you write will come true. I hope that whenever your fic is bad for them, then it's completely alright. You knew it. Everything need a risk. But if it went good, I wanted you to remember that now I imagined I would cry if your fic is a banger and people love it. Remember to cry, because there were so many emotions to be a good writer and I do hope next year, you will be better... 

Lastly, well, try to eat less dude. Also please next year be good. I don't want drama and I want a new friend who actually understand about my things. Huh. 

AND WHAT THE HELL YOU STILL PLAYING THE GAME CALLED GENSHIN IMPACT AND NOW YOU SIMPING FOR XIAO! THAT ONE DUDE THAT YOU SHIP WITH DEAREST AETHER OH SO LOVELY! I recall your last otp lasted for 5 years and maybe this one too lmao. Alright, Xiao is life. OH WHAT ABOUT HIS SHOCKING BANNER? I HOPE YOU GOT HIS C1 BECAUSE DAMN IF YOU DON'T I KNOW YOU WILL CRYING LIKE AN IDIOT. 

OH! THAT REMINDS ME, HAVE YOU GRADUATED? MY MY! IF NOT THEN idk /coughs/ but if you did, you are awesome! I hope you become rich sooner haha...

Anyway let's hope everything will be alright in the next year. The year who bring you so close to become an adult... 

It was quite a long one, huh? You was happy when you write this so yeah! Better not messed up next year! Thank you! Love you, myself! Try to become good at everything! :* 

Sincerely,

Dee

Hello! To me in the future or anyone who read this.

Today is the last day of the year when I wrote this post. I'm not gonna say much about this year because I didn't expect anything to be this worse. Like, really worse. Yes, the worst. Well, It was fun to see my diary in the past year when 2018 is full of fair and uncertainiy and 2019 is my brightest year so far. Yet I'm sorry, 2020 is really the worst. I didn't even remember what's the good memories in this year except my family vacation in Yogyakarta. I'm pretty sure you already know about the virus that has changed the whole world... *sighs* 

I'm not gonna lie. There has been such a lot of dramas in this year. I lost my job (which apparently my dad too) broke with my partner, and I spent all my time AT HOME and become less productive and many more. I almost forget how it feels to come and study in my campus again. Damn, I was barely spent my days for years in my campus and now I need to stay at home. I missed my friends. I want to get out freely like not concerns about anything! Okay. I'm tired of complaining. 

I will tell you this, myself, that I don't know what tf will happened in next year and I hope you getting well. You will turn in 20 so please be ready at everything. Sorry for being lazy in this year. Anyway, I know you will do your best <3 

My hope for next year just...... please be the better year. And let me become more productive >:(

Ps: I wrote this when I want to spend my new year's night with bunch of pizzas but do driver wants to take my order so I'm mad. Yes. Anyway dude you are getting crazy with the game called Genshin Impact. Hope you get more 5 stars character in the game :"( Oooooooh you also lose weight about 5kg hahahahah. 

And please remember about the bad days in this year so it can motivated you.

Sincerely, 

Halo, 

Tahun ini saya kembali mencurahkan perasaan saya. Hari ini adalah hari terakhir di tahun 2019, hari dimana saya telah menjalani setahun penuh di 2019. Sebenarnya di tahun ini, sedihnya, semuanya masih sama seperti tahun kemarin. Tapi nggak semuanya kok! Hehe... 

Setelah saya membaca postingan saya di tahun 2018, saya menangis membacanya. Dan itu membuat saya merasa sedih sekaligus bersyukur karena saya masih diberi kehidupan yang enak di tahun ini. 2019 saya mendapatkan banyak hal yang tidak pernah saya kira di tahun lalu. 

Halo Dee di tahun 2018! Kamu hebat! Kamu telah berhasil berjuang di tahun 2019 ini lho! Hehe. Apa yang kamu inginkan di tahun 2018 beberapa sudah terwujud! Percayalah, tahun 2019 adalah tahun yang lebih baik dari tahunmu wkwk. 

Di tahun 2019 ini masalah masih ada. Justru lebih banyak hingga membuat saya kewalahan sendiri. Masalah internal, external dan lainnya. Sebelumnya saya minta maaf kalau masih belum menjadi perempuan yang seperti saya harapkan pada tahun sebelumnya. Saya masih belum menemukan apa yang saya inginkan dan sejujurnya, saya muak dengan itu. Mungkin saya akan berhenti berpikir untuk menjadi sesuatu dan akan menjadi diri saya sendiri yang apa adanya. Tersesat memang nggak enak, tapi ngikutin alur kehidupan lebih menantang eaaa. 

Apa yang saya inginkan yang menurut saya tidak akan pernah terjadi di tahun sebelumnya beneran terjadi loh di tahun 2019 hehe. Alhamdulillah, saya sudah pernah menginjakkan kaki di tanah Eropa pada tahun ini. Saya sudah mengelilingi 12 negara dan menurut saya, memori ini adalah memori paling Indah diantara memori yang saya buat di tahun ini. Saya benar-benar ingat rasanya menjadi wanita paling bahagia sedunia kala itu. 

Rasanya bikin ketagihan disana teman-teman dan saya planning untuk pergi kesana di tahun 2022 nanti hehe. Semoga terwujud! Aminn. 

Di tahun ini saya melalui banyak hal-hal yang belum pernah saya rasakan. Senang yang berbeda, frustasi bahkan patah hati. Di tahun ini saya merasa menjadi sosok yang baru. Saya merasa lebih dewasa karena di tahun ini, saya berhasil keluar dari zona nyaman untuk menjadi pejuang rebahan. Dan alhamdulillah, saya sudah bekerja. Tapi ternyata bekerja tidak seindah yang saya bayangkan. Saya justru semakin depresi, mengingat saya selalu melakukan kesalahan dan tidak hebat dalam hal apapun. Depresi saya rasanya dobel dan itu membuat saya jadi down. 

Saya bingung untuk membagi waktu antara kerja dan kuliah sedangkan saya ingin memanfaatkan masa muda saya di bangku perkuliahan dengan Indah seperti mengikuti banyak kegiatan. Namun saya harus menepis semua itu dan memilih untuk bekerja. Saya merasa teman-teman saya juga ngejauh dari saya karena sudah jarang bercengkrama apalagi untuk ngopi bersama. Saya tidak tahu apakah bekerja adalah pilihan yang tepat untuk menambah pengalaman baru. Aber alles is okay karena saya bisa menceritakan semua ini dengan bangga!  

By the way, congrats! Salam dari Dee di tahun 2019 ke Dee di tahun 2018 kalau kamu sudah berhasil masuk universitas! Di tahun ini kamu dapat banyak pengalaman, teman baru dan cobaan yang berbeda-beda. But its okay! Never give up buat tahun depan! Sedih juga ya kalau ngingat mau kepala dua nih. Sama dong kek umurnya si anu ;) wkwkwk. 

Pesan buat saya di tahun 2020, tolong jaga emosi, jangan denial, tetap terbuka, friendly, kurangi stress, bersyukur, no toxic, no drama, jangan lupa pakai skincare wkwk dan tetap jadi diri sendiri!  

Sincerely,